Clearly I suck at choosing jobs it will be a good fit or I’ll make compromises that I think will sort themselves out, and they don’t.
I actually think the later is my problem. I’m making compromises to “get the job” with the assumption that I’ll demonstrate my abilities, the organization will be astounded, and riches will fall from the heavens. My adage of “do what you love and the money will come” isn’t panning out. Or am I assuming my job will morph into something I love doing and then I’ll be doing what I love, and then the money will come?
That’s definitely the problem with my most recent gig. I accepted a job I could do well, but it’s not what I love doing. Even after demonstrating the results the company can expect when I do what I love, the position has evolved into something else. I thought I was hired to be growth agent. That is what I love doing. But I find I’m providing support instead. I don’t like myself when I’m in a support role. I am sniveling, I am whiny, I am complaining, and ultimately I’m frustrated as all hell. I’m frustrated because I made a compromise based on an assumption that I will be able to do what I love after demonstrating how good I am at it. The reality is I’m good at support too (whilst struggling not to complain). So if I compromise and accept a support role, can I blame the company for wanting me to continue supporting? I can only blame myself.
So! Even though I was sold a position that would evolve into a growth position, I am stuck in a support role. Perhaps that will change down the road but as of today, I accepted the compromise so I cannot blame the company. I can’t blame the company if I stay in this role either so….
I’m on the road again but this time I will not make compromises. I’ll be straight, and honest, and will force myself to walk away from any position that doesn’t accept me for who I am.
Time will tell if I heed my own advice…